Hi guys kloe here
I’m not going to lie to you guys I was kind of stuck for a blog topic this week but after a bit of soul searching about what I wanted to say and I wasn't going to write about something that i wasn't passionate about so after to going to my thinking place ( my beloved shower) and that’s where this week’s blog topic was born ...
I don’t think I’ve mentioned this before i honestly can’t remember if I’ve told you that last year after a lot of waiting i passed both my Hazard awareness, theory and provisional tests and I’m going to be honest it wasn't all plain sailing and I wouldn’t have done it without my family and my dad’s incredible patience .
And not long after I passed my older sister sammi was about to learn driving to so she used my car and she passed too ( did wonders for my dad’s ego hehe ) and that'll be a year in September but I haven't driven regularly for a year in June just gone at first I did feel sad but my family were great .
it wasn't all plain sailing and I wouldn’t have done it without my family
This blog is my way of telling you about my anxeity about driving again even thought I driven a few times in Portugal (as we have the same car that I learnt to drive in there ) they haven’t by my own standards been good enough and deep down it does feel like I’m diappointing my dad after all the effort and support he put in last year .
I know I’m probably putting this pressure on myself to be great after getting behind the wheel again , I don’t blame anyone for me not driving it was the best outcome of the situation , I’m no Lewis Hamilton let me tell you and even when I was learning to drive i always had trouble getting the car in third gear and that is one of the things I’m so anxious about especially as when I’ve driven in Portugal previously it was horrible getting it into third and all I wanted to do is pull over and cry like I wanted to drive well .
I know I’m probably putting this pressure on myself
Driving is something I know from when I was learning before that you have believe that you can do it and you don't just wake up with the confidence and I know that’s something I’m forgetting myself I guess because I fear in the back of my mind I know I’ll go out driving with my dad and it’ll be going well and then I'll screw it up .
Driving in a foreign country is scary at the best of times like Portuguese people make me feel so nervous especially at crossing they just step out and to be honest scare me half to death I’m so worried that I'll hit someone because in places you can’t see if there is anyone there about to cross like way to scare someone.
you have believe that you can do it
I do feel like when I make mistakes I’m failing all the work my dad put in and all I want to do is scream at myself because I know I can do better than this I hope when I drive again soon I can do better than before and I’m going to try and not put too much pressure on myself , I could let this fear defeat me but I put so much to get here I’m not going let all this effort go to waste.
I hope you guys have enjoyed this post , if you have any fear about any aspects of driving i'd love to know what they are and how you overcame those fears ?
Until next time happy reading